Today is your first day at preschool. I'm writing this whilst you are there. Ophelia is napping, you are not here. The house is very quiet. I was unsure of what to do with myself which is silly as I have a million and one things to do but at this moment I am a mixed bag of emotions and I just wanted to write them all down for you.
I thought I would cry today. I have nervously awaited this day with a sense of excitement and also dread. I welled up but to see how excited you were just made me beam with pride. I still feel now that I could cry but believe me when I say it's not because school is a scary place or that I am upset you won't be with me all of the time, it is because I love you.
You see I still remember the first time I saw you and held you close to my heart. I remember it like it was yesterday. I remember the people in the theatre. I remember feeling so physically drained but when I heard you cry, my heart melted. You were the smallest bundle of joy I had ever seen. I wrapped my arms around you and I instantly knew I would love you forever. I knew that we would have great adventures. I knew that parenting was going to be a challenge but it was something we were going to learn together.
You see I have been with you every step of the way. Every big moment in your life so far, I have been there to teach you and guide you. I remember the first time you smiled at me. I bottled that moment up and I have kept it engraved in my mind. It was such a rewarding moment for me.
I remember your first giggle. What an infectious sound that was. You would laugh at daddy blowing raspberries on your belly or laugh hysterically at Alfie chasing a ball. Your laugh would make me laugh.
From a young age you were always so determined to do everything. I should have known then you were going to be a force to be reckoned with. You rolled over very early on and that didn't stop you. You decided to crawl at just 6 months old. I encouraged you. Together we would chase after the dog or play with toys.
I remember the first time you spoke. Gosh I tried so hard to teach you to say mama first but of course the first word you said was dada. Next up was my name closely followed by dog.
There are so many moments in your life that I have been there to teach you something. I could write so much. I remember reading books with you, singing with you, teaching you to feed yourself, to brush your teeth, to ride a bike, to say please and thank you, to brush your hair. The list is endless.
I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. Sometimes you drive me crazy but I guess it's because you are a mini version of me which makes me so happy. I will continue to love you, care for you, guide you and teach you things the best way I can but it's now time for you to spread your wings.
School is a wonderful place. You will be taught so many great things by your teachers and you will also learn things from your new friends. It won't always be easy. Some days may be hard but these are life lessons which will help shape your personality in years to come. Soak up every moment. Live, learn and laugh. Believe me when I say your time at school will fly by so make the most of it.
Adventure is out there and this is just the beginning of yours. Enjoy.
All my love,