In the words of Justin Timberlake, 'I'm bringing sexy back'. What I mean is I am desperate to feel body confident and comfortable again.
I would love to sit here and tell you that I love my curves, that body size doesn't matter to me and that I'm a super confident mum in her own skin but that would be a lie. It's time for some honesty. I want to feel like me again. I want to be able to look in the mirror and be comfortable with my reflection. I long to go into a shop and buy any clothes I want to. I want to be able to wake up and not have to worry about what I can wear and whether my front bum (as I like to call it) is hanging over my trousers. I want to be eating healthy meals again instead of anything I can get my hands on. I crave to be fit and healthy again. I want to be able to do a sit up again without it taking almost half an hour or walking without me getting out of breath.
Now I'm not saying I was some sort of supermodel before having Ophelia (far from it in fact) but I would just like to be back to normal as I'm feeling very down and negative about it all. It probably doesn't help that i'm surrounded my bikini clad Australian beauties. When I had Eva it took me a year to decide to get rid of my baby weight. I was wondering around in big clothes, eating cake every day. I decided to get a fab personal trainer who I had once a week. He gave me exercises to do at home and a high protein, low carb diet and within 6 weeks I had dropped a massive 2 dress sizes. He tought me not to be obsessed with how much I weigh and just focus on how I looked and felt. I actually weighed more than 9 stone at the end of it but was a very healthy, strong size 8.
I know it's still early days as I'm only 8 weeks post partum but I think now is the time to jump on board and make a change. I need to start thinking positively and to change my whole lifestyle and attitude.
Here's how I plan to do it:
1) Drink more water - I really need to cut back on the tea and coffee I drink and to start hydrating more with water
2) Exercise everyday - I don't mean intense exercise everyday but I need to be doing something.
3) Change my diet - I'm going to do a high protein, low carb diet.
4) Meal plan - I need to start planning my meals in advance so I don't end up throwing any old thing together
5) Track my progress - I'm going to write everything down and take photos so that I can see change.
I've also brought Lean in 15 by the Body coach for meal and exercise ideas. I've got a couple of kettlebells as I used to love doing that class before I was pregnant.
With 2 children most of my exercise will be done at home. I had a cesarean birth so I need to take things easy and listen to my body if I'm pushing it too hard.
Have you got any meal suggestions for me or any exercise ideas? Any tips to keep me motivated? I'll keep you up to date with my progress week by week.